I haven't blogged in awhile...I've been kinda sad.
I had to put my dog, Buddy to sleep last Monday because he sustained an injury to his back and he was in pain. His last days were very pitiful, as he would drag himself around with his front two paws. He had also lost control of his bowels and didn't even know he was going because he had lost the feeling in his back end.
It was a difficult decision to make and I had held onto him for awhile before I could bring myself to go through with it.
I was with Buddy when the vet injected him and I sobbed when he went limp in the vet assistant's arms. His eyes where still open even after the vet confirmed his little heart had stopped beating. I was left alone to be with him and I pressed my face against him and I could still feel the warmth of his body. I told him how much I loved him. Logically I know he couldn't hear me anymore, but I needed to put it out there, I needed to declare his importance to me.
Buddy was my first "child" and I thought I would have him longer than 4 years. His birthday would have been at the end of August and he would have turned 5 y.o. Now he lives on in my memory and I smile and get teary eyed when I think of him.
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I'm so sorry for your loss. I've experienced this twice and it is, so far, the hardest thing I've ever had to do. People who aren't pet-lovers just don't get it. Dogs and cats alike, hold a special place in our hearts and give us such a strong unconditional love that can't be matched by anything else in the world. I'm sure Buddy knew how much you loved him. Now he's up on the higher side of life looking down on you wondering when you'll be there to join him again. Again, I'm so sorry. Hold tight to his memory. I'm sure his photos will always make you smile! Jenn
Oh Christie. I am just crying. I had to do this with my persian Micah, Mikey, Bubby. He and his litter mate Lydia were my first children. And they filled a void of not having children for so long. He needed to go to kitty heaven a long time before I let him. Just selfish I was. But it hurt so horribly to do it. That was 1 1/2 yrs ago. His sister will be 16 in October. Everyday I love on her and tell her to stay with me as long as she can. Praying your heartache eases and you remember only the sweet and funny times you shared soon. hugs
Oh Christie, I'm so sorry to hear about Buddy....
I think of you often and wonder how you are. Missed you in May :)
Hope all is well...
Peggy
I'm so sorry about your Buddy =( I know how much you loved your babies and it's gotta be devastating to say goodbye to one of them after only such a short time! Well he was well loved in the years he was in your life, and I'm sure he knew it ;)
this makes me cry! i'm so glad you wrote this. it's been hard to watch your heart break these last few weeks. thanks for sharing your real thoughts. you did it beautifully.
I saw your photo on Robin's blog and just had to comment. Your Buddy looks a great deal like my dachsie, Velkro. He had the same thing happen to him at only 2 yrs. of age -- paralyzed, incontinent and in pain. Because of his age, we decided on surgery at the Univ. of PA veterinary school (considered the best), but we had to put him down 5 days following that surgery anyhow. It didn't help, and he was suffering greatly. I would *never* put another dog through the agony of surgery on top of a disk rupture. You absolutely did the right thing. Wishing you peace...
I'm so sorry Christie....I know it's hard for you right now. I'm sure Buddy brought you lots of laughs and joy in the short years you were lucky to have him part of your life. Hugs!!
Oh, sweetie, I am so, so sorry! I wish I could be there with you to give you a hug. I'll be praying for you.
Christie, I am so sorry! I know how precious your little "children" are to you, which makes Buddy's loss that much harder to bear. Know that you are in my prayers, and may you have lots of good memories stored up.
I just happened across your blog and saw your post about Buddy. I have to say how sorry I am for you.
It's obvious how much care you had for him. He was so fortunate to belong to your family.
I dread the day this might happen to one of our pets. But thanks for sharing these feelings for us.
By the way, I really like your blog. I used to quilt with my mom.
After my dad passed away, my friend, an A+ quilter like you, took my dad's old shirts and made the most beautiful quilt with them. It hangs over our piano. A beautiful memory project!
Take care,
Judy
So sorry...I never read your blog. I have a daschund too...he is CLIFFORD of 4 years old...
I love dogs.
Leticia from Argentina.
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